The vet called me this am and said they were unable to insert the trach tube due to tumors being present in her throat. He said he was surprised that she could even eat.
He had her sedated and advised me to go ahead and have her put to sleep. He said she may live a few weeks, but would eventually not be able to eat and would have difficulty breathing, and this would really cause her to become apprenhensive and panicky.
I have cried all day, wondering if I made the right decision. And I left her alone and didn't even get to tell her goodbye. I feel like I was to protect her, not to make the decision to end her life.
It will be hard, because I really loved that dog and she was my buddy, always waiting for me when I walked in the door.
But I have to tell myself that she had a good life and was full of life, she was so gentle and a gift from God.
I did pray that she wouldn't have to suffer when she died, and they reassured me that she didn't. But it's still hard.
Lilly the black lab, with my BIL's dog Bo.
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25 comments:
so sorry..I know its hard...you made the right decision, although you probably don't feel like it right now.....dogs live in the moment...she is at peace now and not suffering....poor baby...she had a wonderful life...God bless
I'm so sorry. You made the right decision. This way she didn't have to suffer at all. Remember the wonderful times you had together.
Oh sweetie! I wish I was there to give you a hug.It's so hard but you did the right thing.To hold on and make her suffer would have been selfish.I've been through it three times with my furbabies.With bosely I held on to long because I loved him so much and he did suffer some.When I had him put down I saw that and he was finally at peace.You had alot of good years with Lily.It hurts just like losing a best friend but know in your heart it was for the best for her.I'll keep you in my prayers.Warm Hugs my dear friend!~Amy
Oh Lecia...I'm so very sorry!! I think you made the right decision also, you won't have to see her suffering. I'm sure she did have a wonderful life!
HUGS!!
Brenda
I am so very sorry for your loss. :(
Hugs to you for making such a hard but kind decision not to let her suffer. RIP Lilly.
Carmen and the Primcats
Lecia...((((((BIG HUG)))))) to you! I'm so sorry, I know very well the pain you are feeling right now and there is nothing I can say or do to ease it for you, but I worked at an animal hospital for many years, and making that decision is a hard thing but you made the right one, you saved her any further suffering which would have gotten much worse even in a couple weeks. You allowed her to go gently and painlessly, and with her pride intact, something we can all hope for when our time comes:)
Oh, Lecia, I am so very, very sorry. Lilly is a lucky dog, having had you to care for her and love her enough to let her go when she had been called. She will wait for you at the Rainbow Bridge, running and jumping, chasing butterflies. She now knows no pain or anxiety. She loves just as she did before. She is an amazing animal that brought so much joy to your life. You were blessed by her life and she was blessed by your kindness and generosity. You will miss her but you will also remember her beauty, her gentleness, her antics and the powerful love she had for your family. Dogs are our best friends. I'm sad for you all, Lecia. I'll continue praying for your family. Big Hugs! ★Linda★
Oh Lecia my friend, I AM SOOO SORRY!!!
Please know you did make the right decision for Lily and she didn't have to suffer. Remember the good times. HUGS! Thinking of you! OLM
I am so sorry about Lilly. Know you made the right decision for her--she didn't have to suffer. And she knew your love so don't beat yourself up over not being there. You were there for all of her life....
I'm so sorry...I know that you made the right decision as I've had to make this same decision before too. It is so very hard, but know that she is at peace now and not suffering and will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge.
My vet sent this to me when I had to put my little yorkie-poo to sleep and I just wanted to share it with you...
The Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is the Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals that had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt are made strong again. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They run and play together. The day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted. You and your special friend meet again. You cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted. Happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands caress the beloved head, and you look once more into those trusting eyes, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
You cross the Rainbow Bridge together.
Author Unknown
My thoughts are with you because one year ago, we had to do the same thing with our beloved pet of 14 years. Time does heal the hurt, however, it does take time. I told myself I didn't want to go through that hurt again...ever!! Within 4 months I was so lonely for another "fur baby"...I opened my heart to an ASCPA shelter puppy. He has become a soure of true delight and laughter for my husband and I. We forget and call him by our other dog's name sometimes and he just wags his tail and comes running. Give yourself time to grieve over Lilly and then think about adopting an ASPCA shelter dog. You will be glad that you opened your heart and gained a new friend and companion. Take Care and God Bless! Donna, gmills4@suddenlink.net
I'm very sorry to hear about your loss. They are truly a member of the family! We went through this decision this past summer. It's a hard one! Just remember all the good times!!
Blessings
Erinq1
I am so sorry to hear about Lilly. You did make the right decision, Lilly will not have to suffer because you cared. I'll be praying that the Lord will ease your sadness and comfort you.
So sorry for the lost of Lilly,I'm praying that the Lord will comfort giving you much peace,you did make the right decision and I know it was very hard,I have also had to
make the same decision...Its never easy...
Hugs and Blessings
Trish
So sorry to hear about Lily. Know in your heart that you did what was best. She's right there with you still...in that special place in your heart. Take care.
D
Oh, I am SO sorry to hear about this! You did what you had to do~ don't question that! Sometimes, life just stinkolas!
My neighbor that I help, she sent me that Rainbow Bridge poem, it was a help.
I am sending you a big hug!
Blessings,
Renee
Lecia, I am so sorry to hear that your Lilly is gone. I do believe having her put to sleep was the right way to go. You wouldn't have wanted to see her suffer. None of us have enough words to comfort you, but I hope knowing you have so many friends out here that care for you and are sharing your sorrow will help get you through this difficlut time.
You will always have memories of how special she was.
Sending big hugz to you friend.
~Sheila
I am so sorry about your sweet Lilly - but remember that you gave her a wonderful life and you did what you had to do to take care of her. She will always live on in your heart and your memories. Sending hugs to you and your family.
Oh Lecia,
I'm so sorry for your loss. You did the right thing letting her go. Time will ease the pain.
Lilly loved you and she left this world knowing that you loved her. She had a wonderful life with you and you gave her one final gift....Peace
Run free Sweet Lilly, run free...
Look not where I was
For I am not there
My spirit is free
I am everywhere
In the air that you breathe
In the sounds that you here
Don't cry for me Mom
My spirit is near
I'll watch for you
From the other side
I'll be the one running
New friends by my side
Smile at my memory
Remember in your heart
This isn't the end
It's a brand new start
Lend Me a Pup
I will lend to you for awhile,
a pup, God said,
For you to love her while she lives
and mourn for her when she's dead.
Maybe for twelve or fourteen years,
or maybe two or three
But will you, 'till I call her back,
take care of her for me.
She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
and should her stay be brief
You'll always have her memories,
as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay,
since all from earth return
But there are lessons taught below,
I want this pup to learn.
I've looked the whole world over,
in search of teachers true
And from the folks that crowd life's land,
I have chosen you.
Now will you give her all your love,
nor think the labor vain
Nor hate me when I come,
to take my Pup back again.
I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done"
For all the joys this Pup will bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
we'll love her while we may
And for the happiness we've known,
forever grateful stay
But should you call her back,
much sooner than we've planned
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
and try to understand.
So sorry to hear about your loss. I too believe you made the right decision. I have walked down that path many times. It's not easy but in time you will heal and someday you will meet again. Peace be with you. Blessings! Robin
I am so sorry to hear about Lilly. You made the right decision. Remember all the good times you had with her. You gave Lilly a good life and she knows how much you loved her.
Take care.
sandraallen260@centurytel.net
Lecia,
Im so sorry for your loss. You did the right thing. Lilly knew how much your family loved her and you gave her the greatest gift of not suffering. My heart goes out to you, I know how it feels and when I seen your post I immediately started weeping. God bless you for letting Lilly go with dignity.
Hugs,
Jean
Oh Lecia, I am sorry for your loss..she was in my prayers..you did the right thing..in not letting her suffer..she is happy and whole again and she will meet you again someday..;)
RAINBOW BRIDGE
Weep not for me though I am gone,
Into that gentle night.
Grieve if you will, but not for long,
Upon my soul's sweet flight.
I am at peace, my soul's at rest,
There is no need for tears.
For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.
There is no pain, I suffer not,
The fear now all is gone.
Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.
Remember not my fight for breath,
Remember not the strife,
Please do not dwell upon my death,
But celebrate my life.
Author Constance Jenkins
Lecia~
I haven't been online for awhile, so I'm sorry to hear about your Lilly. You made the right decision in her care. You were a wonderful MOM. You didn't want her to suffer. I'm sure she is at peace now. Big Hugs to you & your family!!
Becky
Lecia..
Lily loved you and trusted you to make the hardest decision of her life. She is not suffering any longer. Tears fill my eyes for you and her, but also a bit selfishly for myself. My Doxie is 14 and not in the best of health and I know the end for us is near as well...God Bless and know Lily is free of all pain and suffering now.
♥♥
Lynne
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